My mid-year results (",)

There's no mid-year exams for Ezekiel but some class tests, to assess the child if they understand what is taught. I would also want to give glory to God for his mid-year progress report.


Cos during last year the last term of his K2, I was suddenly over-whelmed by fears & worries for Ezekiel in pri sch. Reason being, many people out of good intention started sharing with me a lot abt the standard in pri sch lah, u must make sure your child know this lah, u must make sure u prepare your child for this lah, and blah blah blah...., and after listening to all the so called "advice" I literally started to panic, oh no, how, my son can't really read that well and always forgets words that he had learnt and "comparing him with some kids", oh my god, he is so far behind....... be'cos of the fear and worries, I really lost my rational thinking and wisdom and forgotten what I always believe in as a montessori teacher, it's true that when a person in fear, they can't just think right, all thru Ezekiel's pre-sch years, I have not added any additional academic programmes for him, no enrichment classes.......etc just enjoy your pre-school years, and I really didn't do much academic work with him to prepare him.


So I thought now I must "DO" something abt it, and hence started my really "intensive training and drilling" With such an attitude to teach him, it's definitely no fun for him, and the final results was horrible, soon he can't take it he just went blank, he was unable to receive / absorb anything being taught, and then now I had a new worry, worrying that he had learning disability due to his celebral pasly or dyslexia. At this point of time I really can't take it anymore, I finally cried out to Daddy God, I give up, completely give up and surrender. I told God, I really can't do it, and don't know how, I just want to throw the whole thing to Your Mighty Hands, U Do it for me, now it's Your problem, not mine, and I told God, that U mentioned in Isaiah 54:13 - that our children will be taught by U, and I asked Him to be the One to teach Ezekiel, and I started to go slow with him, and thank God that no stress from sch too. Not long after that, I can see that his mind suddenly opened up all of a sudden, his able to learn pretty fast and remembered things being taught and his interest in learning has resurrected and Praise God he is progressing very well, at times it surprise me to see A.......how come he knows how to do that har, who taught him that. It is my greatest joy to see this wonderful results.


Recently mid-year just ended, and I got back his report card, and to my amazement he did pretty well for his academic, it really must be God, I also managed to talk to Ezekiel's teacher to know how he is in sch, and all Glory to God she said they he is considered good academically, and it's was such relief for me, and in all his class tests results were pretty good, it's like only 2 or 3 mistakes =]


From this I really learn that sometimes in our mind we know what to do, but when suddenly the thing that's close to our heart is not going the way we want we start to worry and simply forgotten what we know in our head, and unknowingly we become very paranoid over it, as I was preparing this blog, I was listening to pastor's message, he shared that "when we failed trying to do it our way, when WE TURN TO HIM, HE WILL TURN IT GOOD FOR US", the important thing is not to feel guilty over the stupid mistakes we make when we failed, but to turn to HIM and give the problem to HIM without feeling condemned and guilty, pastor always says too, let HIS Words not just stay in our head, but let it dwell in our heart.